Disappointment

"is the feeling of dissatisfaction that follows the failure of expectations to manifest. Similar to regret it differs in that the individual feeling regret focuses primarily on the personal choices that contributed to a poor outcome, while the individual feeling disappointment focuses on the outcome itself." wikipedia

I have found myself thinking a little bit about my disappointments. The hopes and expectations that I had for a number of friends I have seen scattered. I never know how to address or approach the situations. Do I avoid bringing it up and let them work themselves out and learn from any mistakes that they may or may have already made? Do I tell them how I feel and risk them being upset? Do I cut myself off or should I be closest to them now? Do I encourage them or let them do things in their own time and potentially have hardships? I know whatever I do will have some sort of impact, I just really don't want it to be something that becomes negative. I guess the problem is that I care about people too much. Or maybe I don't care about them enough because I don't say anything? I really don't know what I should do. I can think of what I would initially tell people and what people would probably tell me, but it isn't as easy as all that. It just isn't.

So I am disappointed in myself for not doing what I originally thought I would do in such situations as these, but should I be? What if I am doing the right thing? But what if I am not? Will I regret it more? So many questions left unanswered.

All I can do now is my best. I don't want to disappointed anyone. I want to live up to if not surpass the goals that people have set on me. I want to know that I have made people happy and also myself. I want to know that I did the right thing because I took people's advice and considered it and did what I felt was right. I want to be proud that I didn't give in to many temptations and was able to avoid many life changing bad decisions. Of course I have made my share of bad decisions and in turn have been disappointed in myself and also in those involved other than me. I want to provide the best environment I can for those I love and want to take care of. I want to build a wonderful family and become a respected woman. I want to be a good daughter, a good wife, and a good mother. I have expectations for myself and will do everything in my power to make sure that those expectations are never lessened. I want to be the best person I can be for those that I love and for those that love me.