This blog has nothing to do with the title.
I promised to update more often, so here I go.
Today, it rained. All of Stillwater (and surrounding areas) rejoiced, even if it wasn't for very long, it was still rain. And let me tell you, we really needed it.
I made fried zucchini. How do you get it crunchy? Even if I practically burn them, I can never get them to be like chips. What is the secret?
I was thinking the other day about my future. It is starting to shape a little differently than I had originally had in mind. Actually, I'm still on the same track at the moment, but I can foresee it changing. I am getting a little nervous to be honest. About my life that is. I don't feel incapable, or that I am going to end up on the streets, but I have a feeling the next few years are going to be different than I had thought they would be.
Nick almost defiantly won't be done with school by the time I graduate. He got a late start and wasn't able to take summer classes like we had hoped. This throws a [few] wrenches into my plans. We have been waiting to get married until after we finish school. Me specifically, but then Nick got behind because he had to drop a class, and wasn't able to take as many as he would have needed to graduate in four semesters. So....what am I supposed to do? I know it will be easier for Nick to go to school while we are married than it would have been for me, but it is still a problem since we won't both be able to work for time without things being overly stressful, which was the point of waiting to get married in the first place. On the other hand, I don't think either of us are willing to wait until December '12 or January '13. There is just no way that I want to put us through that. We have been planning to get married since we started dating. I know in reality it hasn't been that long, but as we have had our minds set on us getting married in the summer of 2012, pushing it back 7-8 months would be murderous. It is torture just to wait as long as we have. I'm not just talking about physical stuff. I would be lying if I said that wasn't part of it, but really, we just want to be together. To come home to each other and to be a part of each other in every way. So, there is no way that I am waiting until after Nick officially graduates. I don't have a problem with him doing one more semester. He is very smart and works way faster than I do and doesn't procrastinate his homework at all in comparison to me. I know that things will be fine. We have a lot of family close by Tulsa (which is where we are basically planning to be) so if we ever needed something I know we would have help. I don't however, want to rely on anyone if we don't have to. There are a lot of things to think about, and a lot of worries, but God hasn't failed me yet and I know that getting through our first year of marriage will be ok somehow.
*Update: I talked to my mom about this and feel a little better about it.*
Stemming from these thoughts, I have been thinking about jobs. To be honest, I don't think I am talented at all in graphic design. I really love it, and am passionate about it, but I can't ever seem to make something that I am really proud of. Such things come by me very rarely. Also, I don't know a lot about web design I kind of skipped out on them when I transferred my "web design" classes. I was looking at graphic design jobs online and pretty much every single one was related to web. O_O This of course, scared me a little bit. How on earth am I supposed to get a graphic design job, when all of the graphic designers are becoming web designers???
My answer? Teaching.
Teaching has crossed my mind a few times in the past, but I never wanted to take the time to go get all the schooling I needed. By what if I taught high school? I always felt like someday I was going to do something with teens. I though I was supposed to be a youth pastor. I felt lead to be a speaker at youth conventions and stuff. But, what if I wasn't supposed to be a "pastor." What if I was just me? A minister disguised as a graphic design teacher?
I had the best teachers in high school. They were all fun, and really wanted to be involved in our lives. I still admire and look up to all of them. They were, and are my role models. And not just because of their relationship with God and such, but because of their relationship to me. I want to be that way for someone else.
I may not be able to make things as beautiful as others, but I know what goes behind it, I think I have a good eye for design (maybe that sounds haughty, but I'm really not trying to be), and I want to show others what I love and get them to love it too. I am passionate about design not just because I like it, but because my teachers and professors are passionate about it and have shown me how amazing it is to look at the world through the eyes of an artist.
Anyway, it is time for bed so more on that later as my mind develops it. I need to go to bed.
But first, a parting gift. Nick and I want to go here for our honeymoon:
